Thursday, January 31, 2002 | 8:32 p.m.

if i see britney spears and frickin pepsi one more time in my yahoo mail .... i'm gonna.
... i'm gonna.
... i'm gonna.
do something mean or something.

yah!

Thursday, January 31, 2002 | 3:43 p.m.

... negative!

Thursday, January 31, 2002 | 11:52 a.m.

... my stomach's falling out.

Thursday, January 31, 2002 | 11:04 a.m.

Wowie! You are Redensek! You are techy yet cute, and pretty much all around cool. Everyone loves you! You're fun, popular, and can mold yourself to fit right in to any situation.

i found this test on tina's diary

Thursday, January 31, 2002 | 10:34 a.m.

i don't feel like going, actually. i'm scared. beyond scared. i should be getting ready but i'm not. my stomach's in knots and i don't even feel like eating. i'm seriously scared. i can't even find the strength to get out of bed.

i want to know and i don't want to all at the same time. my hands are shaking.

Wednesday, January 30, 2002 | 9:13 p.m.

i'm going to greenwich tomorrow.

Wednesday, January 30, 2002 | 9:42 a.m.

the weather matches my mood. that's not a good thing. i just want to go back to bed.

Tuesday, January 29, 2002 | 10:27 a.m.

hey you!
i'm not allowed to have a zit today. can you come back later?

Tuesday, January 29, 2002 | 10:10 a.m.

ok, then are there classes i can take to sound 'black' online? 'online ebonics for dummies' maybe? or say 'yo' a lot. oh oh, and say stuff like 'sup dawg'

Tuesday, January 29, 2002 | 3:10 a.m.

faded. dreaming. sigh

Tuesday, Jan. 29, 2002 | 1:33 a.m.

seems i'm all about blogging chats lately. i just think it's fun.
my online bud, sam went to get tested for hiv a couple days after i told him i did. i think everyone should get tested:

sam**: I am getting my test results tomorrow.
sam**: It's got me in a weird funk.
wingd_pony: oh. wow. i didn't know
sam**: it's okay. Everything will be fine. ^_^
wingd_pony: i know
wingd_pony: i mean ... you're sam
sam**: lol
wingd_pony: you probably wear a condom on your tongue when you french kiss
sam**: LOL

Tuesday, January 29, 2002 | 12:41 a.m.

it pisses me off when people can't spell the word masturbate.

'masturbate' ... not ... 'masterbate'
and it's always the morons who do it more than anyone else who spell it wrong. you shouldn't be allowed to do it if you can't even spell it.

Monday, January 28, 2002 | 11:14 p.m.

y'know they forgot to add the word 'annoying' to 'the world's largest casino'. those pop-up ads piss me off.

i feel strangely tired. i feel really soft right now. anyone can get away with almost anything. i'm weak and tired. take advantage of me.

Monday, January 28, 2002 | 10:28 p.m.

kristen barry
ordinary life

and i shed my soul, feel it kneeling down
i'm clutching my faith, pull it tightly round
you're moving your mouth but you don't make a sound
but i feel the walls slowly tearing down

heel to toe takes you from my side
in and out, every breath divides
my eyes to your head, i can't go the distance
but when you go you take me in an instant

in this life, i'll give it time
cause its always pushing up from behind
it'll be alright, it will be fine
its nothing more than ordinary life

and i show you my sins, show me all your scars
as we settle in, its written in the stars
your watery eyes got me send me floating
and my weak heart is swimming with devotion

but in this life
i'll give it time
cause its always sneaking up from behind
it'll be alright, it will be fine
its nothing more than ordinary life

Monday, January 28, 2002 | 9:51 p.m.

and speaking of 'wet' ... one of my best friends from highschool messaged me today. always good to catch up. i hadn't heard from her in a while:

risa: hey
risa: what r u up to
risa: how was the city
wingd: why hello
risa: hi
risa: do i sense sarcasm???
wingd: not much. actually doing work *gasp* hehe
risa: lol
risa: good to hear
risa: i have to come visit u
wingd: what are you up to?
risa: i think i am a lesbian
risa: not much
risa: have i told u that before
risa: i think i have
wingd: whaaaaa?
risa: well lee thinks so too
risa: i kinda got head from a girl at a gay club in london...lol
wingd: WHAT?!!
risa: it was quite the experience
risa: i was drunk
wingd: tell me lee wasn't there
risa: anyway lee was there
wingd: WHAT??!!
risa: well not there there
wingd: i said don't tell me that!
risa: but we went to the club together
wingd: *smack*
risa: lol
risa: ow
risa: that hurt
wingd: and how old was this girl?
risa: dunno i think 26 or something
wingd: and just because you got head from her doesn't mean you're a lesbian
wingd: was she at least nice?
risa: ok what does it mean
wingd: it means a girl went down on you and it was good
wingd: are you in a constant dreamy sigh, thinking about her?
risa: nah actually if i ever see her i will kick her ass on sight
wingd: lol uh ... why?
risa: dunno after the liquor wore off i kinda was mad
wingd: well that's kinda stupid. YOU were the one who drank
wingd: and i'm sure she didn't have a mob hold you down
risa: uh whose side r u on???
wingd: lol hey ... i'm just stating the facts here
risa: well dont

Monday, January 28, 2002 | 9:24 p.m.

... when you're only wet ... because of the rain...

Monday, January 28, 2002 | 8:15 p.m.

i feel i'm being punished.
29 minutes online and nothing.

i feel i'm deserving of punishment

Monday, January 28, 2002 | 3:09 p.m.

alphazonemega (1:57:40 PM): You won
alphazonemega (1:57:43 PM): congratulations
alphazonemega (1:58:14 PM): However this won't be the last of me...introducing Wesley's new diary coming next week (stay tuned)

dun dun duuuuuun! i guess that's when the camera would pan in and an evil laugh would sound in the background. then fade to black.

i don't think he gets it yet. have a diary, fine. wingdsucks. woo hoo! whatever. i don't care. just quit with the harassment. write in your diary and leave the other diarylanders alone.

Monday, January 28, 2002 | 11:42 a.m.

diary hijacked

ignoring him doesn't make him go away. he's like a grease fire. you can't ignore grease fires.

Sunday, January 27, 2002 | 10:00 p.m.

check out: cool site - nervousness.org

Sunday, January 27, 2002 | 6:46 p.m.

hey, jimbo?
what does 'dooie' mean?

Sunday, January 27, 2002 | 5:56 p.m.

i know he loves the attention. at first i thought i'd just ignore him and he'd just go away. he started out responding to a message i left in his guestbook. this is the conversation in it's entirety.
yes, alphazonemega is wesley

alphazonemega (4:31:50 PM): sounds like something you are going to just have to take up with the person that created that site...although your such a hipocrite (...lol...) However, I am sorry but I did not create that site nor do I run that site!
wingdboi (4:34:06 PM): look, just don't direct link any of my images
alphazonemega (4:34:24 PM): LOOK YOU DAMN HIPOCRITE...for the last time it's not my site
alphazonemega (4:34:37 PM): watch what you say though because your starting to sound like me
wingdboi (4:34:38 PM): then tell whoever it is not to
alphazonemega (4:34:56 PM): I am not there boss now am I
alphazonemega (4:35:07 PM): looks as if your going to have to take things up with them personally
alphazonemega (4:35:20 PM): at there site because onncemore IT IS NOT MY DAMN SITE
alphazonemega (4:35:32 PM): I am getting sick of getting blamed for things I don't do
wingdboi (4:35:39 PM): riiiiight
alphazonemega (4:35:44 PM): Trust me if I wanted to mother fucking make a hate site about you then by all god I will
alphazonemega (4:35:59 PM): now stop your whining and go away ...I should tell them to use all your god damn images
wingdboi (4:36:01 PM): are you ok?
alphazonemega (4:36:12 PM): Yes, actually I am quite well...yourslef?
alphazonemega (4:36:17 PM): *yourself
wingdboi (4:36:53 PM): i mean really ... are you ok? this has to be more than a cry for attention
alphazonemega (4:37:08 PM): At any rate, have a good day...
alphazonemega (4:37:23 PM): and stay out of my guestbook ...if you have something to say email me or write to WingdSucks@DiaryLand.Com (not me)
alphazonemega (4:39:27 PM): Also, I would love to thank you for all the advertisement you have given to my site (I picked a great person to pick on) you've got lots of popularity...now I sit back and watch as my free banner ads just appear on your site daily! I say I am a marketing genious...all this brought on upon myself!
alphazonemega (4:39:51 PM): I mean who would to think of getting all these sites mad at them and then make a huge deal out of it ...at any rate, it's making my counter go whacko ...so thanks
wingdboi (4:40:29 PM): you need help, wesley. and i hope you get it
alphazonemega (4:40:51 PM): Actually, I do need some help with my Biology homework...would you be interested in helping?
alphazonemega (4:56:19 PM): so you don't wanna help me with my biology homework? ...we might be able to find a cure for aids while we are doing it?
wingdboi (4:56:59 PM): how 'bout for for stupidity? that way you can be cured and we can ALL be saved
alphazonemega (4:57:33 PM): that is something that we can look into while we are reading about diseases that can be carried into the country from foriegners
alphazonemega (4:57:57 PM): So what do you say ...sounds like a plan to me
alphazonemega (4:58:13 PM): we research stupidity...aids..and foriegn disease infested people
wingdboi (5:02:24 PM): why are you so angry?
alphazonemega (5:03:45 PM): Well I really dont have a lot of time today for starters...so we might not be able to look into that...the book doesn't really cover psychology...you might get someone else to look that question up for you. However, I tell you what I can do ...I can do some research on copyright and find that your site isn't registered at all what so ever therefore it's all up for grabs
wingdboi (5:06:16 PM): it's a free country, wesley. you're free to be an asshole. you can get into trouble for direct linking to someone's server
alphazonemega (5:06:38 PM): Really then take the webmaster then to court I'd love to see it
alphazonemega (5:06:44 PM): ...Hell I'd help with legal fee's
alphazonemega (5:07:06 PM): ...then all I would have to do is post shit on my site and everyone will be like (Wingd ...you are such a baby...etc.
alphazonemega (5:07:40 PM): at any rate, I have to go ...gotta parrrrrtay enjoy your day sweetie (and do try to stay away from any large buildings...I don't want people to mistake you for a terrorist and detain you...hell they might just deport you)

Sunday, January 27, 2002 | 5:00 p.m.

last sunday in our kitchen:

mark: isn't it cool how ashley cleaned the apartment?
me: totally!
mark: good thing i didn't break up with her until the monday.
me: yah. did you see this? *opened the cupboard under the sink* so organized!
mark: and did you see the bathroom?
me: yah. she did great. i like the new shower curtain.

Sunday, January 27, 2002 | 3:25 p.m.

jack32483 sux! has one of the funniest conversations i've ever read.

note how karol just snapped mid-conversation and started threatening the guy. i just don't understand people like that. i'd like to be able to though. is it just anger, illness or stupidity? i lean more toward stupidity. i hope i'm wrong.

Sunday, January 27, 2002 | 2:58 p.m.

it's not that i don't want to hang out. it's just that sometimes i'm not ... people-friendly.

right now i'm not.

Sunday, January 27, 2002 | 2:38 a.m.

kendall payne
on my bones

what these years have brought me
what these years have taught me
heartache and fame
a chance to change
a hope to be stronger
that beauty can smolder
a stage and a curtain
that nothing's for certain
oh these years have been hard on my bones

what this world has brought me
what this world has taught me
senseless spinning
never tie instead of winning
ice cream for licking
the clock's always ticking
no one is free
someone must have a key
oh this world has been hard on my bones
all this time
i'd been seeking my own
oh this road has been hard on my bones

what this love has brought me
what this love has taught me
patience in battle
who's in the saddle?
joy and despair
that i really do care
uncertain desire
the risk going higher
yeah this love has been hard on my bones

what this god has brought me
what this god has taught me
passion and grace
how to stand in one space
laughing at lillies
what truly fufils me
death on a cross
it was i that was lost
oh this god has been life to these bones
oh this god has been life to my bones
yes this god has been life to my bones

Sunday, January 27, 2002 | 2:03 a.m.

Which drink are you?

Saturday, January 26, 2002 | 7:32 p.m.

dave: almost got fired today
vicky**: and you suspect that i care why??
dave: 'cause you love me
vicky**: no, i dont...
dave: you know that you do...lol
vicky**: right, well leave me alone
dave: mmm hmmm k bye

.... yah, vicky said that

Saturday, January 26, 2002 | 5:18 p.m.

bitchfest message board post

the least he could've done is wait until i get my hiv test results back before calling me an 'hiv invested fag'

it's his sensitivity i like hehe.

Saturday, January 26, 2002 | 2:22 p.m.

and wesley continues to threaten and threaten and threaten.

seems that anyone who doesn't agree with him is to be destoyed at once. i thought about starting a blog series with stuff he threatens people with next to a picture of tammy faye baker hehe. like the 'vicky says' one. he would certainly get the attention he wants but i don't know if he matters that much to me. still thinking about doing it though. would be pretty amusing. and wesley is amusing to watch.

Saturday, January 26, 2002 | 5:19 a.m.

nick**: i have a fear that i will sleep in and miss work

wingdboi: i have that fear every time i go to bed. then i realize that i work at home :-)

Friday, January 25, 2002 | 8:28 p.m.

now is one of those times when i wish i could orgasm without masturbating. no mess. no work. just ... *bam!* ... orgasm.

weird thing is though ... i'm not even horny. but i still wish i could have one.

Friday, January 25, 2002 | 5:53 p.m.

i can't wait to get my eyes examined and get new contacts next week. can't frickin wait! glasses drive me up the wall. i can't wear them for too long. i feel blind and awkward in them. gggggrrr! plus, i realize ... i have no nose. i have to keep pushing my glasses back.

lenscrafters! next week! or go insane! i don't know how people deal with wearing glasses all the time.

Friday, January 25, 2002 | 12:40 a.m.

why is hotmail so stupid sometimes? it's as if they try to add features to make it more 'functional' and it just fucks it up more than anything else.

Thursday, January 24, 2002 | 12:23 p.m.

oooooh! the drama!

threatening to give out someone's real address over the internet? and just because they wrote something about you you didn't like?

wesley's becoming the tammy faye baker of diaryland now. it's not pretty.

Thursday, January 24, 2002 | 1:41 a.m.

check out: american tattoo

i swear, when i saw it first my heart skipped a beat or something. it was just so real and sooo something bush would do.

Wednesday, January 23, 2002 | 11:32 p.m.

this was just too funny!

from mel's diary

Wednesday, January 23, 2002 | 8:47 p.m.

do i message him?
does he hate me?
will he tell me to leave him the fuck alone?
does he want me to leave him the fuck alone?

should i message him anyway?
he's been online for 15 minutes already.
does he hate me?
do i message him?

i want to message him
.... *click!*

Wednesday, January 23, 2002 | 7:24 p.m.

"i didn't eat yesterday
and i'm not gonna eat today
and i'm not gonna eat tomorrow
'cause i'm gonna be
.... a super model!"

Wednesday, January 23, 2002 | 10:36 a.m.

vicky**: allo
wingdboi: OMG!!
wingdboi: i just clicked your name!
vicky**: what?
vicky**: no way!!!!
wingdboi: creepy!
vicky**: thats crazy!!
vicky**: lol
wingdboi: i was gonna say "you have been blogged"
wingdboi: and the window popped up
vicky**: LOL thats crazy!!
wingdboi: lol totally
wingdboi: what's even weirder is ... my buddy list was minimized and something just told me to bring it up and i saw your away message was gone
vicky**: LOL that is super fucking weird
vicky**: i think we have esp or something

........

vicky**: i'm amazed that my hair is still up
vicky**: it doesn't move when i sleep
vicky**: this is great
wingdboi: ooooo
wingdboi: how do you pull that one off?
vicky**: not a clue
vicky**: lol
vicky**: i think its cuz for some reason i normally sleep on my back with either my arms crossed across my chest or with the back of one hand on my forehead
vicky**: as weird as that is, its true
vicky**: (12:14:19 PM): and my big spikes are all in front so they're unscathed
wingdboi: lol so you either look like dracula or scarlet o'hara?
vicky**: LMAO!!!

.... yah, vicky said that

Wednesday, January 23, 2002 | 1:15 a.m.

what exactly is he going to do to them? all these idle threats.

what is he gonna do? choke 'em with his pink boa?
raaarr!

Wednesday, January 23, 2002 | 12:07 a.m.

i © you mazzy star and radiohead.
i © you tori amos and hope sandoval & the warm intentions.
i © you all.

... i have a headache. i'm going to bed.

Monday, January 21, 2002 | 11:03 p.m.

guestmap

Monday, January 21, 2002 | 10:43 a.m.

check out: this is scary as hell

got it from ten's diary.

Monday, January 21, 2002 | 10:34 a.m.

this one was between vicky and some guy earlier:

bardo: hello
vicky: who are you?
bardo: no one in particular. just lookin to chat
vicky: and you picked me why??
bardo: why not?
vicky: did you read my info????
bardo: yeah, am i supposed to be frightened by it?
vicky: no but you're supposed to be smart enough to realize that i dont want to talk to random ass fucks

.... yah, vicky said that

Monday, January 21, 2002 | 10:01 a.m.

i woke up a while ago and already i'm feeling irritable.
proceed with caution!

Monday, January 21, 2002 | 1:46 a.m.

cranes
cloudless

like jumping in the breeze
falling in the sea
you live up there

like things she tried to keep
moments as you sleep
you live up there

angels in her hair
warm as summer air
you live up there

like jumping in the breeze
falling in the sea
you live up there

like fields and dreams and spring
lots of happy things
you live up there

like things you never go (away)
and all the things you love
and all of these right moments never end
and all the things you tried to say
you live up there

you live up there
you live up there

. . .
. . .
you live up there

here in the clouds
here in the clouds
you live up there

you live up there
oh, you live up there
oh, you live up there
oh, you live up there

. . .
. . .
you live up there

like falling in the sea
you mean a whole lot more to me
you live up there
oh, you live up there
oh, you live up there
oh, you live...

Sunday, January 20, 2002 | 5:31 p.m.

i'm a bitch
i am. he's not low priority but i made him feel that way. but can't he see thought that he can't be high priority right now? can't he see that?

i made him feel shitty. and now i feel shitty. i look at the phone and then walk away.

i need to get out of the apartment. a walk or something. anything.

Sunday, January 20, 2002 | 3:21 p.m.

vicky**: you know, i was just thinking that if i was on the bottom while fucking, my hair would probably get really fucked up
wingdboi: lol
wingdboi: you'd have to be on top then
wingdboi: make sure to remember that :-)
vicky**: *nods* i shall
vicky**: but what if he has a mohawk?
vicky**: then that will REALLY be a problem
wingdboi: LMAO!
vicky**: can't have sex destroying my cute hair
wingdboi: let's hope he's not that passionate about his :-)
vicky**: LOL exactly!
vicky**: oh wait!
vicky**: doggie style!
vicky**: lol
vicky**: i'm brilliant!
wingdboi: LOL
wingdboi: there ya go. problem solved!
vicky**: damn i'm good!
wingdboi: you are :-)
vicky**: "no! i will not be on the bottom! you'll fuck up my hair. ASSHOLE!!"

.... yah, vicky said that

Sunday, January 20, 2002 | 5:20 a.m.

ok, what was this entry about? second paragraph.

Saturday, January 19, 2002 | 11:25 p.m.

this is vicky
vicky is my friend
vicky lives in illinois
vicky tells people to fuck off when she doesn't feel like talking to them
just like that
"i don't feel like talking to you anymore. how 'bout you fuck off now?" vicky would tell them
vicky doesn't doesn't give a fuck what they say


most always end up saying something lame anyway
i pity anyone vicky doesn't like
vicky is one kick-ass chick
vicky's sometimes my personal hero

i'll randomly post 'vicky says' blogs because she has some of the funniest, coolest chats online sometimes. i swear i love her.

Saturday, January 19, 2002 | 9:15 p.m.

mouse watch:
i put one of those cardboard toilet paper tubes in the cage. they seem to love it. it's been in there about a week now. they chew on it and sleep in it sometimes. well, before they really started in on the chewing. they seem happy moving it around the cage too.

Saturday, Jan. 19, 2002 | 5:18 p.m.

note to self: check out more on digital camera

olympus d-3601

Saturday, January 19, 2002 | 11:45 a.m.

wesley needs help. no one's ever told me to 'FUCK OFF' in my own frickin guestbook. the boy's got balls, i tell ya. under all the drama that surrounds him, he's got ball!

i'm just not in the mood to be a complete bitch to what he said. i'm trying to use my powers for good ... not evil.

mmmmwaahahaha

... oh, and isn't 'twunt' like the best word? jimbo's a genius!

Thursday, January 17, 2002 | 11:22 p.m.

mazzy star
fade into you

i want to hold the hand inside you
i want to take a breath that's true
i look to you and i see nothing
i look to you to see the truth
you live your life
you go in shadows
you'll come apart and you'll go black
some kind of night into your darkness
colors your eyes with what's not there.

fade into you
strange you never knew
fade into you
i think it's strange you never knew

a stranger's light comes on slowly
a stranger's heart without a home
you put your hands into your head
and then smiles cover your heart

fade into you
strange you never knew
fade into you
i think it's strange you never knew

fade into you
strange you never knew
fade into you
i think it's strange you never knew
i think it's strange you never knew

Thursday, January 17, 2002 | 11:00 p.m.

'twenty' is a funny word.

Wednesday, January 16, 2002 | 12:54 a.m.

... if i had a million dollars i'd build a tree fort in our yard.

Thursday, January 10, 2002 | 05:39 p.m.

it's about time i frickin-well update.