Tuesday, April 30, 2002 | 4:09 a.m.

link: gamespot - final fantasy x

...mmmm spoiler movies *grin*

Monday, April 29, 2002 | 2:22 a.m.

note to self:
new contacts - sunday, april 28.

Sunday, April 28, 2002 | 12:32 a.m.

so ...patrick isn't dead.

Saturday, April 27, 2002 | 8:31 p.m.

this guy in chat went off on some other guy, calvins22 or something.

squishmeUES: CLAVINS you sould let people knwo you are black
squishmeUES: sicne no one wants blacks in here for sex

...then he went on and on just pretty much calling the guy a nigger. i thought that it was my attitude and sarcasm towards guys who proposition me that kept me from getting laid. when all along it's because i'm the wrong fuckin' color.

Saturday, April 27, 2002 | 2:53 p.m.

mouse watch:
tera's sick and i have no idea what to do. she stays curled up in a corner making this sneezing sound. i haven't seen her really eating or drinking. relm would lay next to her and pull bits of chewed up cardboard to make a nest or something.

Friday, April 26, 2002 | 1:32 a.m.

link: gaming force

note to self: get kingdom hearts mp3s

Thursday, April 25, 2002 | 11:05 p.m.

You are Spaceman Spiff! Zounds! You are the intrepid Spaceman Spiff, the engaging explorer ensconsed in an unending universe of exotic and evil extraterrestrials! You're brave, but you should give that dictionary a rest. Take the What Calvin are You? Quiz by contessina_2000@yahoo.com!

Tuesday, April 23, 2002 | 11:07 p.m.

link: instant bureaucracy

i really should hand out 'personal favor' forms to people i know.

Tuesday, April 23, 2002 | 12:42 a.m.

link: model search

aaawww, mom, can i keep 'em? i promise to feed them every day and poke airholes in the box. and give them fresh water. and hug them and love them.

...how i hate beautiful people sometimes. and how i long to be one of them equally.

Monday, April 22, 2002 | 12:44 p.m.

link: marijuana street terms

i had no idea there were so many. hehe geek.

Would you survive a horror movie? Find out @ She's Crafty

Friday, April 19, 2002 | 11:54 a.m.

link: band » thirteen 13

...vicky says they kick ass!

Friday, April 19, 2002 | 11:05 a.m.

blah. boys are lame.

they are. a couple weeks ago i decided to just take a break. go into my 'boys are evil' mood and stay there a while. since then, i've actually met, bumped into, chatted with more guys than usual. all of them single, attractive and make me wanna just say 'blah. boys are lame.' because that's so much easier than talking to them.

Thursday, April 18, 2002 | 4:32 p.m.

...ever had a misorgasm?

Wednesday, April 17, 2002 | 5:45 p.m.

You are Yourself! Gay, straight. These words mean very little to you. You are yourself and that's all you need to know. You fall in love with the same gender, but you believe that isn't all there is to you. Your lack of "traditional" gay pride is interpreted by many queers as internal homophobia, but in truth you just want to be your true self. Not just gay.

Take the what kind of fag are you quiz by PsychosisX!

Wednesday, April 17, 2002 | 3:10 p.m.

link: george w girls

...gotta love photoshop. wish i was that good.

Tuesday, April 16, 2002 | 11:01 p.m.

link: always with you

Tuesday, April 16, 2002 | 4:27 a.m.

Which Hacker's Character Are You? Find out @ She's Crafty

Tuesday, April 16, 2002 | 2:20 a.m.

dear cute guy who dropped his wallet on the bus:

i didn't even do my stupid laundry when i came home. too bad there aren't any coffee shops in this area.

Tuesday, April 16, 2002 | 12:56 a.m.

link: animal rights?

...from ten.

Sunday, April 14, 2002 | 3:51 a.m.

unpublished"...i'm in that weird mood. the kind that's brought on by certain music and thinking too much. the kind that gets you at 3 in the morning. the kind that won't leave you alone until you fall asleep. the kind that doesn't let you sleep.

it just wraps around you and makes you think of how shitty your life is until you can't listen to radiohead or mazzy star anymore. it wraps around you and then it starts ...it starts choking you. and it chokes you so fuckin hard that you can feel the tears. and your inside gets wet. all wet. and you swallow hard and there's that lump in your throat. and the music's seeping in you. and you feel it all. and everything around you gets in. everything falls silent around you and gets in. you can't stop it. don't even try ...you can't.

trust me, you can't."

Sunday, April 14, 2002 | 3:31 a.m.

What is YOUR Highschool label?

Saturday, April 13, 2002 | 5:57 p.m.

wingdboi: damn
james**: ?
wingdboi: this transfer
wingdboi: it's swimming across the ocean at this rate
james**: what about it
james**: :-P
james**: 41%... thats not bad
wingdboi: when i'm rich, i'll start a 'support a kid with a cable modem' foundation
james**: lol

Saturday, April 13, 2002 | 12:53 a.m.

i miss chris.

Thursday, April 11, 2002 | 11:42 p.m.

blah!

Thursday, April 11, 2002 | 1:44 p.m.

link: wired news, ipod hacker

Thursday, April 11, 2002 | 4:18 a.m.

still awake.
i emailed a couple people i worked with last year. basically begging for work. i'm seriously tired of always being broke. only problem is, the work will be computer related of course and i don't have what i need to actually work on anything if they reply saying they have stuff for me.

i also emailed that company that stiffed me after i designed two logos for them. logos that were on a frickin fashion runway in brazil or some place! how crazy is that?

Thursday, April 11, 2002 | 12:34 a.m.

link: hey you it's me.com

...i just think it's a cute idea. i read subway ads about it ages ago and forgot the address. got a link to it in some email the other day.

Wednesday, April 10, 2002 | 4:33 p.m.

take the cher test.

and go to mewing.net. because laura isn't cher.

Wednesday, April 10, 2002 | 1:14 a.m.

haven't blogged in ages:

unpublished"...remember when you were a kid and everything was simple? everything was a game. sometimes i watch little kids playing. like tonight as i walked along the boulevard from the supermarket. i watched two little girls run around their parents. the adults walking slowly. tired. the girls giggling and happy.

i looked at the older one.

'can't things stay that simple? look at her smiling. she doesn't have to think about paying any bills or anything. in ten years, she'll be sneaking out, staying out late, getting stuff pierced, telling her folks to fuck off and leave her alone.'

i still have a lot of growing up to do. and i still have to learn about this adult thing. most times i don't know what the hell i'm doing and i feel i'm the only one in that boat. then i talk to Husani or so and i feel easier that i'm not the only one without an instruction manual. and that i'm not the only one who fucks up or gets scared. and i do. a lot."

Wednesday, April 03, 2002 | 6:06 p.m.

link: winrg (windows really good edition)

very funny. explore.

Wednesday, April 03, 2002 | 3:00 p.m.

link: flash movie » riding a bike

...short but cute.

Wednesday, April 03, 2002 | 3:00 a.m.

strange. my amazon wishlist says someone's purchased 'prick up your ears: the biography of joe orton'. i rarely even check the list but now i can't stop trying to figure out when it was purchased and who got it.

Wednesday, April 03, 2002 | 2:32 a.m.

so, since last week's 'no men week' was a huge flop ...this week i'm going to make more friends. straight friends. one can only take so much of the shallowness that is the gay tribe. people in general are shallow. gay, straight or barnyard animal lover. maybe i just really want people who will either want to sleep with me or compete with me.

why the hell couldn't vicky or ten live closer?!

Monday, April 01, 2002 | 11:58 p.m.

fact #022: just because i'm gay and i have a male roommate, doesn't mean i've:

1. had sex with him.
2. touched his penis.
3. seen him naked.

i should note that i also have no interest in doing any of the above. and no, he's not ugly.

Monday, April 01, 2002 | 10:34 p.m.

mouse watch:
they're actually a lot tamer now. i guess i haven't been paying too much attention to them lately. today i had to clean their cage and i just realized how much easier it is to pick them up. the first times i had to, it took forever. especially with tera. but now, it's like routine for them. i tap on the other side of the cage, relm always come over and i use my other hand to pick her up. tera's still a little harder but not like before. when i buy fruit again, i'll try hand feeding.

Monday, April 01, 2002 | 7:33 p.m.

link: bunny

...too cool!